I had made plans to go out again tonight- but I failed in my process in doing so. As I was getting ready to go I was all pumped and primed don’t get me wrong - but then I started thinking about things and bit my bit things starting hitting me like a stone.
Yes, I miss you... a lot. I try so hard not to think about you and what it would be like to be with you... feeding on your hungry eyes. Having you hold me in your arms, touching me physically; feeling the beating of your heart against mine. Your sweet breathe on my lips as I drink in your sweetness. The images of you never escape me, as I still fall under your spell as you pierce my mind day to day. I wish for so many things, but yet you are still so far out of my reach.
Tell me what you feel, because what I feel is so real. I never knew that falling in love could be so magical- you leave a spell encased on my heart and my mind. Am I falling in love? Am I lost in a dream? I close my eyes and see nothing but your images in my mind, as I see you and I together embracing each other for the first time. Moments of heated passion surround our bodies; and obsession taking over our lips and caresses. Well no one told me what this was going to be like but I’m taking it step by step, and bit by bit; and day by day.
I won’t let my spirit fail me until I reach my destination. I won’t give up - I’ve got to hold on to what I have got. I want you; but in the same process I’m officially missing you. I have to take things slow. I have to let you know that we have nothing to lose. I know you feel that time will eventually let us be by ourselves and will ease the pain inside- as we take a ride on the other side. [Looking for love]
I know how I got to be this way... you got to know love comes in many ways
But the love that God gives you will never, never change.
Will you take a chance on me?? This is where I get weak and fall deep, everyday and night. When you need someone, will I be that one you need? When the tears get near your eyes will I be the one that's by your side? Will you be there when I call you in the middle of the night? Let me tell you that I will give you my world. And baby I'd be your girl. And I will say to you everything I have is yours.
So many dreams and tears have fallen through me as I have wished and prayed to be yours, and only yours. No one will ever know how much you really mean to me. I play on my dreams and see you in my mind everyday as we cuddle and kiss one another- but I know it’s just a fantasy; but in the far reaches of my mind I still see it as a real moment in my life. You are what keeps me moving, day in and day out. You will never ever know just how much you really mean to me until we are united as one being, emerged as one soul- complete together. Just know this-