Have you ever walked on air
Ever felt like you were dreamin'
When you never thought it could
But it will, it feels that good
Have you ever been so in love
Have you ever said a prayer
And found that it was answered
All my hope has been restored
And I ain't looking anymore
Have you ever been so in love, have you
Did you know I am afraid of sleeping, afraid of waking up with the same fears? Did you know that I been burned by the flames, and kept out of sight? Do you know I’m trying to make you understand? It’s not about you; it’s me who is building the castles in a dream. If I sound crazy, it doesn’t mean I don’t want you near.
Just take me as I am.
I may never get to hold you tight, I may never get kiss you goodnight, I may never get to look deep into your eyes. But I will always be wishing in my mind what “could be” and all of the happiness I can find.
I can only imagine what will it will be like when I walk by your side. I can only imagine what my eyes will see when your face is before me. I can only imagine how my arms will feel when I feel our first embrace. I can only imagine when that day comes. Will I even be able to speak at all? Will I be able to stand or will my legs falter? When I open in my eyes will you be there so I can see your sweet face?
Do you know how none of those things really matter? Because here inside of my heart with you the sun always shines. Do you know how you gave life to me? You take my weaknesses and make me strong. And I know there is no other who can promise me the lifetime of love.
You will always be there every time I fall. And I will always love you until forever is gone. You are to me the greatest love of all. I know you will be the wings that guide my broken light. You will be my shelter through all of my raging storms.
I am exposing myself to you as I stripping myself of everything that I have felt for some time now- leaving me feeling bare naked. Would it make a difference if I told you I was scared? Would it make a difference if I told you I felt like I was on the verge of a breakdown? Would you care if I told you that I haven’t changed at all since leaving my old diary? That I still hide inside and still don’t tell you everything like I should and I know that’s what you are here for. What would you say if I told you I was so close to falling back into my old self like before? After I made you the promise that I wouldn’t go that far again. I am no longer me and there is no escaping myself. I still cry in the silence of the night, when I know no one can hear my silent cries for attention; as I let my tears wet my pillow.
It’s hard to explain how I always feel so out of place. Feeling that no one will completely understand me leaves me feeling like I am on the outside.
Would you care if I was gone? Would you feel free enough to tell me how much I meant to you or would you be relieved to know that I am gone? I wanted to tell you that my heart is your hands. I pray for the day that I would be given the chance, because these feelings I keep all to myself. But I just can’t take it anymore. Now I am exposed like a child without a home, searching for the feeling of easy come and easy go. I wanted to keep all of this a secret, but it has been burning like a candle and burning me; and I wanted to give you the key the best of me.
Can you see the real me? Can you see just how much you mean to me? Can you feel the emotions building up inside, waiting to break free? Can you feel me falling into you? Did you know that right beside you is where I want to stay? And what we have transcends all other things as my heart mends. As long as I hold you in my heart you will always be my baby. You will always be a part of me.